10/20/2026
I turn 32 on Wednesday, and I’m learning that struggling and trusting yourself can exist at the same time.
After moving, I realized how many systems I’d built that helped me manage and mask my then undiagnosed ADHD. When my surroundings and routines changed, those supports weren’t there anymore. And I took it personally. I thought I’d be able to work through it, but another year in, I was still struggling. Why couldn’t I get my s**t together when I’d done it before?
I’m still figuring out what works now with an official diagnosis. But I’m also walking into 32 knowing what I love, what I want, and what I’m done choosing just because it’s familiar.
Feeling safe has always been hard for me. I’ve spent so much time anticipating what could go wrong. Lately, I feel more confident making decisions because I trust myself to handle the outcome. Even if it needs figuring out.
That’s a pretty fu***ng big thing to take into another year.
If you’re struggling with things you thought you’d mastered while getting clearer about yourself than ever, give yourself credit for both. You can need help with the everyday stuff and still have big fu***ng plans.
I want to push my creativity and see what I’m capable of. CLUB 32 is part of that. The Cue Room was supposed to wait until 2027, but making art with you makes me happy. Giving is how I love on people. So for my birthday, I wanted to go all in on both. And that’s how CLUB 32 became my birthday “f*ck it.”
The Cue Room turned private party. A session with professional guidance from start to finish. And 32 STUNNING digital images. I want you opening that gallery and immediately texting your best friend because she needs to see this s**t.
I’m realizing I don’t have to wait until everything feels easy to make something incredible. And you don’t have to have everything figured out to come enjoy it. 🖤