07/21/2026
Iām moving back to Seattle⦠next week! š²
Wait, what? When did this happen? Why so sudden?
Yeah, I know. Itās sudden for me too.
Long story short, contrary to what Iāve been posting online, Iāve actually been struggling really bad, financially. Pretty much every other thing has been amazing except money. Iāve been able to build my skills sm, capture the most amazing things, experience millions of people come across my videos, and share my art and love for music with the world in such a beautiful way.
What you arenāt seeing is the month-to-month struggle over rent, tears & frustration over balancing passion and dreams and avoid debt. Saying no to the coolest opportunities because I needed to prioritize paid gigs, literally hundreds of cold emails and DMs left unanswered, job applications (I havenāt received a rejection or interview email back in months).
Due to some circumstances out of my control, I ended up without the rest of my planned income this month, donāt have any savings (I drained them while I waited for gigs to pick up) and canāt sign my lease once the current one is supposed to end. So, Iām leaving early, packing up my things and heading back home to try and rebuild :,)
I donāt think Iāve ever been more conflicted or heartbroken over something like this. Iām crushed to leave this city, the community and friends and family Iāve just started to form here. Leaving one of the most major cities for tours and kpop and fan events is devastating to me, trying to build my career. I keep going back and wondering āCould I have tried harder? What did I do wrong? Why have I been working so hard and have this experience but still canāt make my career work?ā
But I have to give myself grace and trust that it will make sense eventually. Iāve said as quickly as God brought me into the city, he brought me out and I trust that itās all for a reason. Weirdly enough though, I feel so much peace in my decision to leave, and know that this year has been just the beginning of something wonderful. Even though it ended unexpectedly, itās not forever :) what a gift it is to have people to miss ā¤ļø