09/27/2026
Today was my very last photo shoot. A lot of people have been asking how I’m feeling. There are so many mixed emotions. I still have 3-4 months of editing to go before I’m done officially, so I will have lots of time to process them all. I’m going to miss this so much. I don’t know who I am without being a photographer. It’s been my identity since I was 15 years old. But I’m excited and nervous to find out who else I can be. I’m excited to have a normal routine again and be able to finally address the health problems I’ve been too busy to face for the past few years. I’m scared of not having an income for the next few years while I pursue my university degree. I have no idea what the future will hold for me, it’s all very unknown - but that is also incredibly freeing and empowering. I’m proud - so very very proud of myself for building this career and capturing so many priceless memories for so many people over the past 29 years. I’m proud that I made it through the busiest summer I’ve ever had in those 29 years. In June, when I got back from Scotland with one day to unpack before the grad season started in full swing, I had NO IDEA how I was going to do it… how I was gonna get through 90+ shoots in 3 months. But I took one day at a time, I fully immersed myself in my final year, and I gave it everything I had to create the best work I’ve ever done. We had the most unbelievable opportunities to do just that, thanks to 90+ families, wedding couples, grads, and groups who stepped in front of our lens and dreamt BIG about what their photos could be.
I’ll still be posting here regularly and I’ll still be working tirelessly over the rest of the year getting everyone’s collections delivered, but today was the last time having people in front of my lens, and that’s a surreal, weird, disorienting, crazy, sad but kind of happy feeling. Mostly, I feel grateful. Grateful to have had the BEST JOB EVER for 29 insane, fulfilling, exhausting, adventurous, emotional, creative, beautiful years. So if you’re wondering how I’m feeling… it’s a little bit of all of that.