10/11/2023
I felt normal today…
I walked the longest distance I have in the last 3 months!
My family held my hand each step of the way. These are the memories I cherish with them. No matter how slow I had to go they created a little circle around me and shuffled their feet in support.
We went clothing shopping because I quite literally had a mental break down. I’ve gained 10 lbs and with my new port…
Absolutely nothing that I use to wear can be worn anymore.
My daughter curled my hair today because I am nervous as hell to lift my arms with my new port. I’m still healing. And I’m thankful my kids are ready to step in and help where they can.
I use to hide my illness from them. But I realized I was robbing them of so much time with me. Robbing them of compassion. And so much more…
And although I don’t believe they deserve a sick mom and I’m still coming to terms with this reality….
They deserve the best version of me. Which is why I decided to go on the pump 24/7. It’s been 3 years since I have been able to play with them as a mom should…
And I’m fighting every day to get better to give the best version of myself to my family.
I want to say thank you for everyone who’s left comments and support. I truly appreciate it. I don’t have the energy to respond to everyone. But know I am blown away with how you view me and my ability to share my journey.
I just want to remind you that you’re not alone in how you feel. No matter how big/small or stupid it feels to have a reaction over something…
Your feelings are valid ✌🏽✨