01/11/2026
you know what has made life the most beautiful for me?
family. books. art. poetry. painting. dancing. mountains. Jungles. Forests. pooping in the woods. meeting strangers and catching a vibe together. epic conversations that Flow with ease, and difficult conversations that help build understanding and dexterity. going on walks around the neighborhood and seeing children smiling and playing. tai chi in the park. going through challenges that brought me empathy, supported by people who also understood the pain of suffering. Sharing love.
It has made me sad when I had to close off my attention to people I have loved along the way to attend to my own self care, and I learned that collapsing under the weight of my despair did not allow me to show up how I would have wanted.
I learned that reaching out for support from somebody more solid and asking for help worked best if I didn't feel too much panic and overwhelm to function.
I learned to respect people’s limits and not attack them when they were no longer available to share resources, but to trust in this abundant universe and most importantly, in love, in my self, and in the goodness of others, that the right doors would open for me, and the wrong ones would be closed.
I learned to forgive the moments I did lash out in my terror, and to have conversations of repair once I was stable and resourced enough to keep my center. (a few of those still pending, BTW) I learned to forgive the people who caused me pain in their moments of overwhelm.
self care and service in balance is one of the first essential ingredients to getting well, and also that love is what makes the world light up. I hope you fill yourself with the love you need to say, I deserve support. I get to ask for help. I hope you follow the aliveness within you.
And I hope that your journey brings you love enough to fill you with the courage to spread your wings and attend to beautiful adventures.
You are magic. I hope you discover it along your way.
