09/30/2026
I’ve been working on this post for a while.
I didn’t know how to start, so I’m just going to pour it all out.
I’m 1 in 4 who has experienced miscarriage.
It wrecked me. It brought me to my knees and to places in my mind I didn’t know existed. I had no idea what to expect, so I’m sharing what it was like for me, because maybe someone else needs to know they’re not alone. 🤍
**The bleeding.**
I was told it would be like a heavy period! But I wasn’t prepared to bleed for almost TWO weeks.
Light bleeding leading to extremely heavy bleeding with clots and back to spotting.
And while my body was going through all of that, I still had to be a mom. I still had to go out into the world and act like everything was normal.
But inside, I was screaming.
I felt like the whole world should know that I had a baby I was losing, and there was nothing I could do about it.
Then came the nausea while postpartum-level bleeding. Not a fun mix! And then my milk came in!!! No one tells you that!
I was already breastfeeding my 1.5-year-old and suddenly my body felt like I had just had a baby and my b***s felt full! only there was no baby. And only 1 week later I’d feel completely dried up empty which had a whole other level of sadness to this!
My hormones were all over the place. Sadness. Anger. Bargaining. Stress. Grief.
No one tells you what your mind can look like after loss and I was not okay! I felt such a strong internal battle and angry.
I miscarried in May, Tomorrow is October and my cycles still aren’t completely normal, but my mind is better. My body is healthy. And I still believe God is good.
I don’t know why my baby couldn’t be here.
But I’m choosing to believe there is purpose in this story, even when I can’t see it yet. And it’s all leading to a bigger plan!
And if you’re 1 in 4 too:
You’re not crazy.
You’re not alone.
And you don’t have to be okay just because the world keeps moving. 🤍