11/27/2025
Life looks so different from last Thanksgiving. Accepting a life I never wanted, choosing to be grateful for the blessings God has given me while also feeling the pain of loss.
Having hard conversations about life with Silas and listening to him and his desires. At the beginning of the summer Silas asked me when I might find someone new, he wanted the laughter back and the daily presence of a man.
He was ready and my heart was too, but my mind was unsure. My mind raced with questions like: Will I get judged by others? What will my in-laws think? What will my family think?
As I talked with my therapist about it she brought up so many amazing things that we talked about over the last few years.
She told me that I need to trust my faith, my heart and my intuition. She told me that I am the only one who can decide if I am ready. She said you will make a choice to be ready.
She was right, and I met Matt, a man who has shown me and Silas a love that is deep, kind, generous and one that honors and respects Zach’s memory in the most beautiful way.
Today is filled with so many emotions ❤️
I am thankful for the love Zach and I shared and the privilege and honor of caring for him.
I am thankful for Silas and his laughter, humor and kindness.
I am thankful for my in-laws, my family and Matt and his family who have welcome me and Silas.
Today feels like a pinball of emotions, but I am also thankful for that. The opportunity to feel and process.
May your Thanksgiving be filled with joy, love and peace.
♥️Amber
