02/17/2026
For the last 12 years, we have shared our infertility journey with you — the prayers, the waiting, the hope, the heartbreak, and the faith that God would write a beautiful ending.
This past week, we received news that my endometrial hyperplasia has returned. Between last Thursday up to today - our world has been turned upside down. & now this is unfortunately at a much higher complex stage now with atypical cells so our treatment options have become very limited.
We met with the Oncology team last Friday and will be scheduling a hysterectomy within the next few days to ensure no cancer is present. They will be mapping everything during the procedure so nothing is left behind if found.
After more than a decade of praying and believing for the chance to carry our own children, we are now being asked to close this chapter of our story.
This grief is deep and complicated. It’s mourning the life we prayed for, the future we pictured, and the babies we have loved and lost along the way — our sweet angel babies who changed us forever and will always be part of our hearts.
It’s grieving the experiences we will never get to have…
Never knowing what it feels like to go into labor.
Never experiencing delivery day.
Never watching my body grow life the way we prayed it would.
Never getting the intimate, sacred moments of conceiving and carrying a child naturally or seeing a little kaykay or Jarron run around our home.
It’s the quiet ache of knowing we won’t be able to give our parents the grandchildren we so deeply wished we could.
And the deep, personal heartbreak of feeling like I can’t give my husband the child he so deserves.
There really aren’t words for the weight of this loss.
This isn’t the path we would have chosen… but we still trust the One who walks it with us.
God is still good.
He is still faithful.
And we believe He is still writing our story, even when it looks nothing like we imagined.
Right now we are asking for prayers as we prepare for surgery and for grace, patience, and understanding as we process, grieve, and learn how to move forward.
Thank you for loving us, praying for us, and walking beside us through every season.
As of now - I will not be scheduling any sessions until things settle down.
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