10/01/2023
Vulnerability.
It’s so hard for me to share my weaknesses, especially with clients or strangers, I always want to appear like I have it together, that my cracks aren’t showing. But this year has shattered that perception of myself that I’ve tried so hard to maintain to the outside world…
I haven’t been on my business page for almost an entire year, I’ve been working behind the scenes, but haven’t been sharing my heart and work. I want to share now.
In December my life was turned upside down, my marriage finally met its deterioration after years of trying to save it, then shortly after our separation, my husband very unexpectedly passed away in July, leaving me the sole provider and caretaker to my four small children. I’ve been trying to help them navigate their grief and sadness while also learning how to navigate the new life that’s been handed to me, the pressure that comes with knowing I’m now all they have, and if I’m enough.
These last few months I’ve taken the time for myself and children to step back and soak in what life now has in store for us… I packed my babies up in my minivan and cross country road-tripped to California, drove through the Colorado mountains, stopping at Lake Tahoe along the way to take in the beauty of nature that surrounded us, heading down to Los Angeles where my family lives to rest and refill our hearts with comfort and love. We spent our days splashing in the ocean, wandering the off beaten trails, and of course seeing the magic that only Disneyland can offer. But most of all, I soaked in my children and my family. I watched their smiles and listened to their laughs, snuggled them closer every chance I had, held them even when my arms were too exhausted to keep carrying them. More now than ever, I realize how short life truly is, how quickly it can change.
My goal going forward in my business and in my life, is to do what truly brings me happiness and joy. I realize now more than ever just how precious photographs are especially when they’re all you have left of a memory that’s passed. And that’s what I want to capture for you… the joy of life, the little things we might overlook when we’re busy chasing our children and trying to keep up with what life has handed us. I want to capture the little dimples of your toddlers hands, their arms wrapped around your neck while you breathe them in, the laughter of parents when reminiscing on how they met, when a family is embracing each other in love. I want to capture your real life. Your vulnerability. Your beauty. Because you never know when these moments will pass and they’ll be your last.
So here’s to the remainder of 2023 and what life has in store, I have a feeling it’s going to be amazing ✨
