10/11/2023
****** announcement ******
I’ve started and deleted and restarted and deleted this post 102 times now.
I will not be taking on any new sessions for the foreseeable future 😞. I’m heart-shattered and totally second guessing this decision but I know my soul needs a break. It has been over 11 years that I have been able to watch all of your families grow and I wouldn’t take back a split second of it.
Anytime a kiddo who I’ve never met before, gives me a hug after a session or asks me to come to their birthday party or I get an invite to one of my senior’s grad parties or an update on a family’s loved ones because we have become family, my heart beams and my eyes leak. Having you all send me pictures of your gallery walls or the messages I receive of gratitude… are a fuel beyond anything you could believe!
But the truth is that I am on empty. I’ve really tried to slow down a bit in the last year and after I posted about the greenhouse mini sessions I was FLOODED with messages. I’m talking over 70 messages in 2 days. On top of many, many, many more messages for the busy fall season. I apologize deeply for any messages that I haven’t responded to (and if it helps, I cancelled the greenhouse minis) …but the ugly, vulnerable truth is that it was too much for me to handle right now.
For professional reasons, I’m clearly not too open with my clients about my anxiety but I will just say…it hasn’t been good. And then on top of it, I dealt with weeks of computer issues that set me back and I have been so overwhelmed…but truly…overwhelmed for years now. I still have another full time job and an incredible daughter who deserves the best mom and is growing up too fast but at least for hopefully a few more months thinks I’m pretty cool.
I continued to take it all on because I love it. And I love you all. But these last few weeks I feel so clearly that it’s a season where I need to be more present in my own life.
I don’t know what the timeline looks like. Im not officially closing any doors yet…just a chapter. I realize im going to lose some incredible clients which is to be expected! But I know it’s the right decision for my mental and physical health.
All sessions that are already booked from now through the end of the year I will still be taking!!
I don’t know what to say. My life is forever better with core memories engraved because of having the BEST clients anyone could ask, wish or pray for! I miss you already and will hopefully see you again soon!!
