11/06/2025
If youāve been following me for a while, you mightāve noticed that I used to take a lot of photos of myself. But itās been almost 20 months since I last did. Today, that changed. I finally stepped back in front of the camera. My body looks so different now. I'm about 40 pounds heavier than before pregnancy but... Iām not trying to hide. I havenāt been avoiding photos out of shame. Iāve just been living.
Becoming a mom rocked my world. That first year was hard, overwhelming, beautiful, and messy. Now, I have so much fun with my little one and when Iām not with her, Iām working and serving all of you... and somewhere in the middle, I forgot to pause for me.
Today I finally gave myself space to breathe, to witness this version of me, and document how much my body has changed ... because I haven't hated myself through this transformation. Are my b***s now lopsided and does one ni**le point north and the other south? Yeah lol but there is nothing wrong with that - itās just different now. And sure, Iāve gotten frustrated at times (when clothes donāt fit the same or when running around with Everly leaves me feeling out of shape) but even in those moments, Iāve loved my body through it all. No matter how badly society (and comparison mode) tried to convince me otherwise.
And I know my body will keep evolving, as I eventually stop breastfeeding, hopefully get more sleep, and carve out time and space to work out and focus on my health again. This is just a season, a chapter in my bodyās story, and I wanted to capture it. Honestly and unapologetically.
If youāve been feeling disconnected from your body or like you just ādonāt have timeā to get in front of the camera, I see you. I get it. Whether youāre learning to love your body again or just trying to find a moment to exist outside of everything else, youāre not alone. If you ever want to talk or carve out that space for yourself, Iād love to hold that space with you.