11/21/2020
I was debating on posting this, but I decided that I should.
A lot of good things are happening right now: we have my folks in town, more family is coming to visit next week for Thanksgiving,and we should close on our house soon 🎉. My heart is grateful. And I feel the weightiness of that. 🙌🏻
There have also been really hard things. We ran into some major setbacks at one of my jobs, our work schedules right are nutsos, and my brain and to-do lists have been like a hamster wheel for months. As one project wraps up, there’s another one ready to go, so it just feels 🏃🏻♀️🏃🏻♀️🏃🏻♀️.
My tendency is to act or pretend like I’m fine (if I feel to much, the things that need to get done can’t get done 😅). BUT I can’t pretend like it’s not hard because then I’ll crack. And there have been days where I unexpectedly became a Mt. Vesuvius of tears and stress. No bueno. I’m working on giving myself space to name things and feel them as they come. That’s the hard part 😬.
Friends, I feel like this is a reminder of what this year has been. There is no doubt that this year has been a year for the books (or better yet, one that you can just forget about in some respects). There have been plenty of less-than-ideal and a lot of hardship and heaviness for so many people. BUT there’s also been SO MUCH good. And it’s crucial we remember those moments as well. This life is so both and. We can’t compartmentalize. We need to feel and create space for it all. The lows make the highs that much sweeter💪🏻.
If you’re in this place, you’re not alone. I’m right there with you, and I’m giving you a virtual hug because this is social media. But if we were IRL, I would hug you without a second thought. Also, praying for you, friend 💛.