09/29/2024
It’s interesting lately- a balancing of the scales. Being on the forefront of so many people, artists, spaces, events, festivals, movies, businesses as they are just getting established. To aiding in sharing my thoughts and ideas simply because i wanted to- many never asked my opinion- yet to see so many things implemented to a degree afterward, it’s a silent recognition and is much appreciated. It isn’t often we get the credit or acknowledge we need or deserve verbally yet the actions and conversations that occur in person, backstage, in green rooms, private events through personal invites where no acknowledgment is required or asked that we receive it.
Today i was introduced to a gentleman who knew who i was from an article that was published about my involvement in a project. Completely caught me off guard and it felt nice- a sense of relief. Like FINALLY. However, another sensation, it’s about time. Lastly a Yes, i did participate and i have done many things. Someone took the time to look at the type of work i do- from a different perspective and it helped me understand more about all the connections I’ve made as a creator, manifestos and alchemist looking at things from different angles and i feel good about this.
It’s one thing to work at an experience (whatever that is) versus being invited and granted access by your name added to a list, or being consulted on projects that have nothing to do with what i enjoy as a hobby but rather someone valuing feedback- running with it, and sharing gratitude for the amplification of what was already in play-
When i applied with Black Rock Media to shoot a documentary (i didn’t attend burning man) which was probably best for various reasons) i had to create an EPK ish type resume of all the things I’ve worked on- a very elaborate, polished and diverse portfolio as a journalist, to my surprise i was accepted- wrong project, wrong time but this was a staple moment for me. After having 2 films down, many awards, accolades, accomplishments etc with our podcast network, photo shoots, interviews, BTS footage, in person backstage interviews, it started to click- i just ask the most obscure and meaningful questions to everyone- it’s in my nature.
I love humans. I care and want to learn, blame Mr. Rogers for this- however, i have been at opening day and in discussions for many ideas for decades. I became a Strategic Architect, a solutions architect was my actual title when my team brought the cloud online in 2013-2015 for CenturyLink, when i pitched mega expansive growth for the consumer line for Ultimate Ears revolutionizing how we experience music today as consumers, to writing processes and protocols for events in many spaces for Omni channel experiences, due to my years of experience with Zift One Solitions, Logitech, Veritas (Symantec) Juniper Networks and largely NetApp- this transitioned to music with my friendship with bands such as Taking Back Sunday, Underoath, Yoke Lore, etc. even to edm with Trivecta and Illenium- A$ap Rocky and Future with Merritt Fay, to the head team at Spotify
Designing partner programs for some of the largest tech companies in the world to now working with spaces and being asked “what would you do with this space?” “How would you grow this?” “What could we do differently?”
I’ve always been that guy. The past few nights, I’ve finally been publicly recognized by some of the head people in events, creators, musicians, actors etc.
Why did i do it? I was building a team for a project i am creating- a movie, a book, an app, a festival that all coincide together. Scouting spaces, interviewing the integrity of the people i was interested and documenting my experience with everyone- the role of a quantum citizen journalist.
I never intended to “work” for anyone, or gain anything- i have been writing a story and i want to include everyone who deserves a place- who believes in themselves and is willing to aid in a much larger project, one that has never been done before (I’ve checked the digital archives, guiness, Wikipedia, the internet and news)
To establish a net new way of creating the experience and choosing which experiences to desire and fulfill. A new format of story telling, documenting, creating, being involved. : Stella, a product of My Troxler Effect, inspired by The Code: 0010110, my personal interests of course- a true complete anthology of my human experience with all my favorite things and people-
I’ve mentioned bits and pieces here and there, I’ve observed, listened, watched and yes it’s created confusion and bickering which I’m well aware of- such as being black listed from a chain of venues from a show i created and booked through a local agency because i wasn’t given credit for the show… to clearing it up with the owner of the buildings these guys work for personally apologizing to me and adding my son and i on his personal guest list for an event this past summer- kinda trumps anyone disliking me for rumors of me “sneaking in to a Justin Bieber concert) that never happened. To being “entitled” no- i earned my place.
Truth is, never show your hand in poker- never reveal your connections and relationships out of respect for them, add value and offer a hand and invest in marginal products at an event- common sense.
This is the tipping point- it’s time for those who have evolved by connecting with me, from them. When it all comes together- it will be pure magic. I also wrote a play by play as to each connection, our story as a chapter in the book- and app to use that will help you journey back to center through soulullar alignment using keys, a legend and a map that has never once in history been published like this.
I’ve been sitting on a gold mine for years. The people lined up, the musicians for the soundtrack, I’ll need all hands on deck and once the plot, story, and script is shared- i know everyone will accept and make this happen because the world needs it. Co-creation, collaboration that has been eager to be established- how did this happen? I looked to the stars, discovered patterns often overlooked or deemed unimportant for years- yet if you use them all in the right format- success every damn time.
Let’s all grow together, independent on one another. This all started after i wrote up the pitch for Brittany who’s family owned the lot That Granary Live sits now. After board meetings represented by the GM of Woodbine before it opened. Or sitting in on the hiring process for The Marquis before it opened and being there everyday volunteering to aid others- representing and testing my ideas and theories without my name attached to it. Intentionally. I created a weird reputation by default- yet NO ONE was secure enough to pull me aside and tell me about the chatter until it was lawyer worthy, thank you homies.
I could have pressed charges, i could have defended myself in so many cases- however being as a disabled veteran, with autism- an IQ off the charts, a decade of additional study, degrees. Accolades awards- they are worthless- i am a language analyst and cryptography expert- ex NSA missions. I understand many things, yet am underutilized, undervalued, and under appreciated and have been due to many personal features and expectations of me. Fine i accept, now wait- transmuted that, anonymous support, backers, volunteers will make it happen.
Clear the air. Apologize. Forgive. Move forward. Grow together independently alongside each other. Life is too short.
It’s not who you know, it’s how they treat you. It’s how you leave them feeling after converging in a moment of passing or a quick conversation. It’s about the mutual respect, and understanding the connection and how it’s meant to grow all involved, a ripple in time and frequency through vibrations. Be one they will never forget.
