01/09/2020
It's been another hot minute since I have been on this account.
I have taken a break from taking clients but that doesnt mean I have stopped doing what I love ♡ and right now that is just documenting childrens lives through pictures.
These past been months have been long and rough. This pregnancy is much harder, thomas started a new job getting ready to move in a month, and then also getting ready for this baby arrival (10 weeks till she is here!) And I am one exhausted human being.
As I look at myself I realized that I need to focus on the important things in my life which is 100% my family and my mental health.
When I was pregnant with my second sweet little angel I fell into a deep depression in my 3rd trimester. I didn't really notice it. I just thought I was tired because I was pregnant and taking care of my oldest who was 2 at the time all day and all night. I figured it would all pass.
Then when Hadlee came my depression turned into full blown postpartum depression and anxiety.
My hard working hubby was working 3 jobs (including his Army obligations) and was gone most days. So he did not see what I was going through and I was in denial because after Taylor i was perfectly fine.
I suffered through this depression for over a year! And because of it my marriage was also strained.
No one except my sweet mother ever mentioned that they thought i might have it and should look into getting some help.
It took a lot of time to break out of that low spot and I never want to be there again.
I am so afraid that after this sweet girl is born I will fall back into that dark spot. I don't want that. I want to be happy, healthy, & present! That is why I am focusing NOW on what truly matters to me. I am focusing on those extra bright spots in my life, the ones I can hold onto if I ever need to pull myself up again. that's where photographing my family comes in!
So, until I am ready to start taking on clients once again please enjoy all these pictures of my sweet little family.
I will be back at it, taking all your cute pictures sometime late spring or early summer!
Love you all and if you made it through my long post I love you even more!!