10/01/2025
If 20 year old first time mom Brittni and 35 year old second time mom Brittni could have a heart to heart, I think it would go a little like this:
35 year old Brittni would tell 20 year old Brittni that even though its hard now, it gets better, so much better. She would say "just wait until she's 3 years old and follows you around like you're the greatest person in the world! Being a young mom is a blessing in disguise! You're raising a mini version of yourself and healing all of your childhood wounds with her!"
20 year old Brittni would tell 35 year old Brittni not to worry so much. We didn't even know what we were doing the first time and look at how good she turned out! The little things don't matter as much in the end. Loving your girls the best thing you can do!
35 year old Brittni would tell 20 year old Brittni that life will be hard for a few years and being a single mom is tough but we grow so much because of it and that someday we get married and have another girl!
20 year old Brittni would tell 35 year old Brittni that she is capable of so much! If I can work 2 jobs, go to school and raise a baby, then you got this girl! It may feel harder at times but you are strong. We did this once, we can do it again!
35 year old Brittni would tell 20 year old Brittni that being a mom has healed so much of your brocken heart. Its exactly what you were meant to be. Having 2 beautiful daughters is the single most rewarding part of your life.
I feel myself trapped in my own head sometimes. Being a mom can be mentally exhausting! I had so much blind confidence at 20 being a first time mom. I didn't know what i was doing or what was expected and it made it so much easier without all of the pressures of the world. It was a blessing, honestly. This time around, I find myself worrying, even about the littliest things. I wish I could bottle up that confidence I had before (not sure why I was so confident but it worked! lol) and give it to myself now!
And somewhere down the line 60 year old Brittni is probably crying because her babies have all grown up and moved out and she misses these precious moments, even the ones that are hard!