08/27/2026
If you read anything today, you have to read this.
The Reflection in the Puddle
I had driven past that puddle four or five times during the course of three days. Each time, I noticed the clouds reflected in the water, but I kept driving. Today was different. Something pulled at me and told me to stop. I parked along the road, set my camera on a tripod, and walked over to the edge of the water. I squatted down on my haunches in the green grass and stared into the reflection.
At first, I saw the man I am today. Then the clouds slowly moved across the water, and for just a moment, I was no longer an old man. I was thirteen years old again, riding my bicycle down the streets of that little town where I grew up. I spent most of those days alone. I would ride for hours with no particular place to go, carrying thoughts inside me that I did not know how to explain to anyone. I was a boy who often felt different from the rest of the world, but on that bicycle, with the wind against my face, I felt free.
Another cloud passed over the puddle, and the reflection changed again. I saw myself as a young married man with children to raise, bills to pay, and responsibilities waiting for me every morning. Life had become serious. There was always something that needed fixing, something that needed paying for, and someone depending on me. I worked, worried, and tried to become the husband and father I thought I was supposed to be. Other than my family, I still spent much of my life alone. But during those years, loneliness had little time to speak because life was always making noise.
I leaned closer to the water and began to see the wrinkles forming on my face. Suddenly, I was in my early forties. My marriage was over, my children were in college, and the house had grown painfully quiet. The life I believed would last forever had changed. I had a few close friends, but when the day ended and everyone went home, I was alone again. There are some kinds of loneliness that make a great deal of noise, even in a silent room.
I am now in my early sixties, and in many ways, life has not changed much during the past twenty years. I never remarried, and more than likely, I never will. I loved one woman in my life, and I do not believe I could ever love another woman in quite the same way. Some people may not understand that, but the heart does not always follow what makes sense. Sometimes it holds on to what mattered most, even after the years have carried everything else away.
The clouds continued moving, and my reflection grew older. My body has more aches and pains now. My knees do not lift me from the ground as easily as they once did. I move a little slower, and some mornings it takes longer to convince my body that we still have work to do. But I am still here. I am still kicking. I am still trying to raise a little Cain whenever I get the chance. Life has knocked me down more times than I can count, but somehow, I have always found a reason to get back up.
I placed my hands on my knees and slowly stood. Before walking away, I looked down into that puddle one last time. The clouds had moved on, and there I was again—not the lonely thirteen-year-old boy, not the young husband and father, and not the broken man standing in an empty house. I saw all of them together. Every age I had ever been was still somewhere inside me.
And standing beside that muddy road, I realized something. I will not go quietly into the darkness and simply disappear. As long as I am here, I will keep telling my stories. I will keep taking pictures. I will keep trying to help someone believe that tomorrow can be a better day. I do not know how many years I have left, but I know what I will do with them.
When my time finally comes, the world will know that I was here. It will know that I loved, struggled, fell, and found the courage to stand again. And while I was here, in whatever small way I could, I made a difference.