07/28/2023
Today marks 10 years since my husband died. That is crazy. I couldn’t imagine surviving a day, a year, let alone 10 w/o him. I wanted to paint something for him, his last day and representing all those days since he’s been gone…. all the grief that I have rolled in since July 28, 2013 into one painting. I mean all of my paintings incorporate forms of grief and pain but also a lot of hope and love. Losing him made my heart grow bigger. And my humor a bit darker. I sorta imagined what this painting would look like but until it was finished, I knew I captured his last day, all those years and all of the loss and all of the love we shared.
I am so grateful to have had 15 years with him. He bought me my first easel and always encouraged me to paint. We have two kids that have so much of him in them that I cherish everyday. We all carry pieces of him in us that will always keep him alive. Here’s to love & loss and to getting to paint our deepest depths inside us. What I haven’t been able to put in words I have always been able to put in painting. Thank you to all of you here and supporting me and supporting all artists putting themselves out there. Art is so vulnerable and it has brought me so much fear but SOOO much more joy & growth. I am so thankful.
Hug each other for me, for our kids and for Bryon. We all miss him and will forever hold his life in our hearts and lives.
This painting felt so so therapeutic & I hope you can feel the energy, light and love from this. Though I am not actively grieving (like in the first few years, as I’m crying writing this) there’s always room for healing and growing and holding our heavy hearts with us each day, each breath.
I love you.
“For love” 18x24, mixed media, canvas
🌈🌅🌦️ Tiffany Palafox
