01/13/2022
Geesh, been a while huh? Well I hope you’ve all has a beautiful Christmas, and NYE, and a good start to the new year! Figured I’d switch it up and share some of my poetry here. Let me know if you’d be interested in seeing more! Follow me on Instagram: rudylawwrites
I call this; ‘E for Expel’
- In Text-
1/12/22
3:55pm
Her presence hangs over me
like a grey cloud full of rain-
waiting to pour.
To drench me in her toxicity
-acid drizzle-
Reaching out my hand to
catch a droplet
My skin starts to sizzle.
I don't pull away
theres a calming energy from
the pain
I shut my eyes and breathe in slowly-
inhaling through my nose
and exhaling out of my mouth.
As my lungs use the muscles
in my chest to take in the
air around me,
my diaphragm flattens
like a piece of paper.
I exhale and my whole body relaxes
as the air I just inhaled
is let out of my lungs.
I could say
'I feel better.'
But the truth is...
I feel bitter.
I harbor this guilt.
How could I be so stupid?
Naive?
1/12/22
3:55pm
How could I give myself
to her wholeheartedly
as a human being?
My soul, my heart, my breath
everything I ever was.
For her to then stomp
on me like a kid traipsing
onto an ants nest.
Me, being the ants, I became
angry, resentful, and embitter.
Wishing I could cause her the
same amount of pain
she caused me.
R.L