08/12/2024
What is your relationship with F E A R?
With every leap of F A I T H, its right there to question..
- What in the H E L L, do you think you're doing!?! -
My usual go to is ignore, avoid, push down..
If you are dealing with a lot of F E A R, first know that you are not alone.
Know that most people stay in their comfort zone and never leave it because of that FEAR.
Its I N T E N S E, to say the very least.
I am dealing with it the best I can but I know I need support, most of the time I'm not willing to ask for it.
I've been told to come home. (Oklahoma)
I can't though - I imagine doing just that.. and I would be giving up.
Giving up on a journey of the heart, a Hero's journey.
To encounter fear and to run back home.. I'm not about to give up or give in to Fear, no matter how intense.
I'm here, waking up with anxiety about all the UNKNOWN the UNCERTAINTY.
Wondering if I have what it takes.. to overcome this?
I am expanding, I am growing. One baby step at a time.
One action at a time. I can't stay in these spinning thoughts.
I am digging deep into me, what is my gift. What is it that I am here to offer to the world?
Is it my photography?
Maybe its just to encourage others who feel stuck in a life that seems to be going nowhere.
You C A N do it. If I can do this after a lifetime of trauma, of not trusting the world and not knowing how to trust myself.. You CAN.
I am pushing thru it all - there is a diamond here within.
I see glimpses of it.
There are tears enough to fill an ocean, tears that are watering a garden of a magical Life.
Life can be so Beautiful. And its worth fighting for.
And to the fear that meets me every morning, I look inward and say thank you. "Thank you, for your voice. Thank you, for your concern for me. Thank you, for trying to keep me safe."
I love you, I will love me. I will protect myself, I will keep you safe. But I will not keep you small. We are here to live Wild and Free.
I know there is a way, I know my heart is leading me to the place.. the place where I belong.
Where my heart is free, where my soul is loved. Where my life is a bright L I G H T because I dared to chose it, I didn't sit in the backseat of my life.
Dream a beautiful dream.. and than have the A U D A C I T Y to go after it.
And if you need a little extra love and support along the way.
I'm here for you.