04/09/2023
Tired of fighting a battle I'll never win...
Tired of never being good enough...
Tired of not being perfect enough...
Tired of being your everything one day...
And nothing to you the next day...
Tired of the disrespect...
Tired of being punished...
Tired of the mind games...
Tired of your side f**k toys...
Tired of your lies...
Tired of your hatefulness...
Tired of the mentle abuse...
Tired of the emotional abuse...
Tired of being told I'm wrong...
When I know I'm right...
Tired of you throwing your lil fits when things don't go how you want...
Tired of the gas lighting...
Tired of the guilt trips...
Tired of begging you to take me on a date...
Tired of begging for romance...
Tired of begging for your attention...
Tired of begging you to spend some time with me alone...
Tired of you taking my s**t...
Tired of you taking my money...
Tired of you taking my phone away from me...
Tired of you telling me what I can and can't do...
Tired of being told who I can and can't talk to...
Or what I can and can't say...
Tired of being told how I should word things or type things...
Tired of the list of invisible rules...
Tired of you lying and telling people that I've done things that you did just to keep someone from being pi**ed or upset with you...
Tired of things being ok for you to do but not me...
Tired of being treated like a child...
Tired of being forced to do things I don't wanna do...
Tired of being forced to be a different person...
Tired of being forced to be what you want me to be...
Tired of slowly losing myself day by day...
Tired of being blamed for all your problems...
Tired of lying for you...
Tired of having to fix your problems...
Tired of forgiving you for your mistakes...
Tired of getting my heart broken over and over again by you...
Tired of f**king life...
Let me just end it...
Because I can't forgive you anymore...
I know if I do forgive you, your just gonna break my heart all over again, and I can't handle that. You don't get it do you? Either way, I lose. I can't love you and I can't hate you because it's ruining my life. I need to nothing you... I need to feel nothing for you... I need to not think about you... I need to not care about you at all... I need to hate you... but idk how to do that...