02/12/2023
Hey!
I've become out of touch with my photography, even with being an artist really. I'm unsure why. For the past few weeks I have been trying to work up the courage to return to, from what I can remember, that which I loved dearly. What makes matters worse is I am actually home nearly all the time.
Lately I have been focusing on work, my beautiful and exceptional girlfriend, nearly 1 yr old son, and both improving and maintaining my mental and physical health. 2022 was a beautifully disastrous combination of the greatest and joyous year of my life, as well as the darkest, lowest, shame and guilt ridden I have ever been due to my lifelong struggle with mental health issues. I have "beaten" it and am now becoming me again.
I wish life was as simple as "this is when i can get some photos ready to share"... but sadly, for me it's not. Let alone the fact I have literally 32,000 photos to go through, and I am backed up and catching up from October of 2021...
You can consider this post a tiny, baby-step in the right direction though. While many things in life seem so uncertain there is one thing that stands out clear and true. I do want to come back. I want to improve. I want to get my work out their and share my passion on a personal and professional level. My frustration is beginning to outweigh whatever mental wall has been built up by time/money and the general tedium that comes with living comfortably in society. So much so that here I am.. with this post.
Please forgive me for wasting so much precious time.
Thank you for enjoying the work I share, the experiences in life I've been fortunate enough to capture moments of.
Thank you for tolerating my occasional sarcastic captions that do not translate well through text.
Thank you for sticking around and reading this.
Appreciation I truly couldn't put into words.
Sincerely,
Patrick Lothian