12/13/2025
3 weeks in to my recovery and I am finally able to feel like I can even talk about it...
I didn't just fracture and rotate my femur. No. I fractured and rotated my spirit. πππ
To say this hasn't been easy is putting it lightly. And to think I was already struggling before this accident.
Now, I've been struggling not to believe wholeheartedly that the light I was seeing at the end of the tunnel was indeed just a train! π
I'd like to think I know better. Truly, I would. And for my kids sake I have no choice in the matter really. They depend on me and therefore I must convince myself that everything is going to work out. That everything is going to be okay.
But I'm not one for lying and especially not to myself. I don't know what the future holds for me but I do know so long as I stay strong then nothing can bring me down.
There within lies the problem. Staying strong isn't exactly my strong suit. Go figure! I'm a recovering addict who in the past 8 years has managed to quit smoking ci******es, w**d, he**in, and m**h. Not som**hing I am proud of and it's also not som**hing I have ever mentioned publicly.
Becoming strong is what I was and still am working on. Finding the strength in myself to not give up nor give in is an every day challenge. And now with this injury I am finding it all the more difficult.
BUT I REFUSE TO LET IT GET THE BEST OF ME!!!
I have come much too far to stop now and I have much too much to live for. I might be only hanging on by a thread, but at least I'm still hanging on!
I know it might seem like I stopped a long time ago considering I haven't been active on Facebook for quite some time but I promise I'm doing everything in my power to be coming back better and stronger than ever!
I appreciate everyone's support. Always. And all I can ask for is patience and understanding. As I give myself the same.
Thank you all πβ€οΈβπ©Ήπ
Joel
P.s. it's not a video of the accident, I just wanted to share a trick that I was proud of doing after not having skateboarded in years I was getting back in the groove and it was helping motivate me to be active and I was also able to start teaching my kids how to skate also! I just might have to give it up for good this time tho so now all I have left are these videos, memories, and 3 giant screws in my leg! π