06/08/2022
It just so happened that I swam my very first 10K Mother’s Day this year.
And I say “happened” because when I signed up for this race, last fall, in the midst of a deep depression, I had no clue when this race would be. Just signing up for it gave me hope. It gave me something to look forward to following my Mom’s sudden and unexpected passing on April 8, 2021.
I didn’t train for this race.
I had never swam this distance before. I also knew that the longest I had ever done in my life up this point was 4.5 miles…..12 years ago.
My brain was ready.
My mind was ready.
My body? I had no idea.
And so Juan Miguel, Pia and I traveled to Manta, Ecuador and I swam my first 10K.
On Sunday, May 8, 2022. Mother’s Day.
1 year and 2 months to the day that my Mother went to the stars.
The race was magical.
I felt my Mom every stroke.
Any time I directed my thoughts to her, she sent me what has become a current sign - a bird. Every single EVERY SINGLE TIME that I would chat with her, I would look up, and sure enough, there was a bird. One. Single. Bird. Every. Single. Time.
Throughout my swim, I also struggled, felt frustrated and unsure I was going to complete this distance. And sure enough, when my thoughts turned negative, Mom sent me a bird to encourage me. “You got this” I could hear her say to me.
After 3 hours and 38 minutes, as I emerged from the water - and after swimming the entire race under cloudy skies, wouldn’t you know it, Mom parted the clouds, the sun shone through, Pia found me emerging from the water and together, we crossed the finish line.
Today, June 8, many moons ago, you, Mom, gave me life.
Today I celebrate YOU.
Thank YOU for being my Mom.
Thank YOU for loving me.
I felt you when I grabbed Pia’s hand and saw the look of relief and excitement in her face that I had made it. I felt you when we crossed the finish line.
I feel you now, more than I have these last 14 months and for that I am grateful.
I miss you calling me and singing Happy Birthday, but I know you will come through today by ways of other signs…perhaps a bird or two?
I love you.
I miss you.
Your daughter,
Caty
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