10/20/2026
I thought we were on the mend. The fever had broken Sunday.
Today seemed ok. Just a lotta coughing. She came with me to do errands. By mid-afternoon, a call to triage nurse, next in ER getting IV for dehydration and meds for the fever that reared again. Borderline UTI otherwise something viral. I am hoping that we have found the cause, getting the mess she needs, and we'll see my feisty, firey second born again.
This morning before we left I felt frustrated, angry, tired, all the things. How can I take care of myself and my kids and my house and have a great relationship with my husband and run a business and continue to heal from years of trauma. Oh and wait loose weight, exercise, have hobbies, take vacations, make sure kids are having experiences that help them grow, run to any extracurriculars, and live 20-30 from nearly everything because I wanted to make sure my husband got his dream of living in his childhood home that his grandfather built, and pay for gas, and so anything that might be fun for me, date nights (what r those??????)....
My mom once asked me three years ago why I am so worried and anxious all the time as a mom. How to explain the onslaught of demands of a mother in this day and age. Have you seen our socials and what it seems like mom's are able to to do? Their perfect life that seems to fall into place, and they seem to do and have everything we're told we want....
Hey mom, yea you, the one reading this post and maybe feeling like yea she sees me. I do. I know the loneliness. The demands. Your heart. You're a good mom. You're a wonderful woman. And those kids you have? They get to have you as their mom.
Connect with me if this resonates. I want to build a safe place to where we aren't all things and we don't have to be. I'm building something beautiful for you.
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