12/23/2021
I don’t get to write about it as much, but I still think about infertility often. I think about the waiting we endured, and I think about friends that went through or are currently going through a season of waiting. One thing I have come to understand through that deep longing is the advent season. Yet I know I have barely scratched the surface of grasping the miracle of Jesus’ birth. But that personal experience of infertility, eagerly waiting for a miracle, I’m thankful for it every advent season. It reaches deeper and wider in my heart than it did before infertility, that’s for sure. And I’m not alone in it. I have many friends who have walked out this waiting with, before, and after me. I think of Lindsey, Alyse, Amber, Bailey, Emily, Dani… Just to name a few. Each of these women, in all kinds of routes to get there, now hold sweet babies in their arms. What that hole of waiting brought us is now filled up with immeasurable joy. But God is good not because we have babies now. But because of what he did for us through his own baby. The miracle of Christmas through a fully God slash fully human… baby. My mind is forever blown. People were desperately looking for him, expecting him, waiting for prophecies to be fulfilled through him. They had their eyes peeled, yet many still missed him. Don’t miss the miracles before you this Christmas. Maybe they look different than you thought they would. Maybe you’re still wrestling with that hope you don’t yet see. I can tell you through my own life and the lives of many dear women around me, that Jesus is faithful. Not because of what he’s going to do, but because of what he already did. What the miracle of his own birth, life, death & resurrection brought us. I hope that is a comfort to you in the midst of your pain, your loneliness, your longing this Christmas. I truly do. I pray that beyond what your circumstances bring up and despite what you’re going through, that joy, hope, faith, and peace are a soothing balm to your heartache this advent season. Wishing y’all a very merry & wonder-filled Christmas 💛