11/11/2025
When I went to India, I thought I was going to take photographs. I didn’t realize the country would be the one studying me—frame by frame, gesture by gesture—until I started seeing myself in the people who had never heard my name.
In Kolkata, the air felt heavy, but not unkind. The buildings stood like unfinished sentences: half-built, half-forgotten, somehow still breathing. Kids ran barefoot across cracked sidewalks, chatter ricocheting between concrete and sky. I had come to document curiosity and color, but what I found was something more elusive: recognition.
At a school for blind children, I watched hands move like light, tracing faces, finding friends in outlines. They met me through their hands, disarming my camera in seconds and removing the lens in an instant. I remember thinking: this is what seeing feels like. Later, in an orphanage, joy took the shape of chaos: shared laughter, questions about curly hair, playing & showing off skills, the rhythm of belonging that doesn’t need explanation.
Everywhere I turned, color spilled—from fabric drying on rooftops to walls painted in the language of heat and dust. I didn’t know it then, but something ancestral was stirring. A thread, tugging quietly at my ribs. The kind of knowing that lives in bones before blood.
Sometimes I think the camera knew before I did, that I wasn’t just photographing a place, I was remembering one.
Because what I found in India wasn’t something I could pack and bring home. It was a mirror I didn’t know I was looking for. I left with more questions than answers, but maybe that’s what finding yourself actually looks like: never finished, always returning.