08/08/2026
Got to go see my dad for his birthday today and my sweet little nieces birthday today (it is also one of my brothers birthdays today also so happy birthday to my older brother Scott Zank also today!!) with these 2 silly billys!!! Definitely needed to see them both today with everything that’s been going on the last 9 months!! Also we will hopefully be finding out the gender of the sweet little spawn that will soon be my absolute best friend from my sweet sweet oldest baby spawn. 2026 has 100% shown me things I was not ready to face this year. BUT. We are all in the same boat with being thrown things every year we never thought we would face. That is the wonderful thing about life. You never know what is gonna get thrown at your door (but for the love of fricken god can I PLEASE catch a break at some point this year lmao) and riding out the wave is what you make of it. It’s also about who you surround yourself with and how much you self isolate. As much as being in your own little bubble and comfort zone is an amazing feeling (trust me. My autism shows me this every single day and I LOVE being in my peace hole as well as every one else who is even just slightly on the spectrum of any kind) peace spot is an amazing feeling of peace, how does anyone expect to experience any kind of anything if they don’t go out and find it on some kind of adventure.
This is about the most life update I can really offer lol. My dad is still kickin but he has a horrible memory at this time and he is in a specialty brain hospital still, but every single day he gets a little bit better and it’s a step closer. I won’t have much for updates because even the smallest update is big and we get quite a few of the small updates each week. We’re trying everything we can but we can only do so much do to the level of brain injury he received. I can with my whole heart and chest say, he survived something that 96% of people don’t survive. The fact he lived is a literal miracle and the fact he’s making any progress and wasn’t completely brain dead or had minimal brain activity is mind blowing after finding out the full extent of everything that happened. But. He should be here a while longer to meet his great grand child. And I know he’s gonna be the best great grandpa.
My oldest is pregnant and desperately wants a baby girl but we really just want a healthy baby. She will be roughly 12 weeks pregnant on Monday and is due around Valentine’s Day. She desperately wants to do a Bambi theme or Winnie the Pooh. I did thumper as the theme for her and seeing how excited she is to have the relationship with her baby is what has melted my heart. That girl saved my life when I was 17. And the last thing we wanted was for her to have a baby. But due to all the trauma and lack of supervision at her dads things have been super difficult with my older 3 (this is the literal reason I haven’t been able to even hardly post anything for months besides sparingly, as I have been dealing with hella trauma responses from the kids and the parenting/culture shock of not being used to having to check in every so many hours or sharing their location, down to them being so used to the lack of supervision that I now have multiple cop homies that have helped a ton with the girls. But then there is my boy child who is just like his mother and does literally whatever he wants (due to the kids being court wards I can’t use appropriate physical discipline to force them to come home when they decide they’re staying at a Friends house to pick them up and make them come home or making them stay home while they grounded. This was put in place to prove CPS’s point of neglect and abuse. There is a ton more to this but this is the short half a story) whenever he wants and doesn’t care about consequences or results. I’m working with him with healthwest and it’s been difficult but we’re slowly getting there. And in 100% honesty their older sister has been a god send with helping me with them while everything else in my life falls apart. I literally spend 12 hours cleaning the house non stop right now and the other 8 I’m awake I spend chasing the kids with police due to the situation we are currently in from someone else’s actions, abuse, and neglect. So if anyone has any tips on how to manage a pre teen who was so spoiled (this is my fault due to my older 3 being held from me multiple times for no reason the last few years and yes, I do have proof and evidence of this to prove my side.) she has no respect for adults and 3 teens who are unhinged due to abuse, please drop them in the comments and or holla at ya girl. Because bruh. My toddlers were WAY easier and I’d just about give anything for them to be small again and nice lmao.
