Bee The Light Co.

11/21/2023

I've been messaged by many of you regarding this & appreciate the support everyone has been giving.
This GoFundMe is to assist with the aftermath of my beautiful Raylene, passing away.

Thank you all again for your condolences, all are appreciated

Hello, everyone. My name is Irving Hamad, my beautiful partner passed away as many of you know. … Irving Hamad needs your support for Raylene Briggs

10/10/2023

I felt normal today…

I walked the longest distance I have in the last 3 months!

My family held my hand each step of the way. These are the memories I cherish with them. No matter how slow I had to go they created a little circle around me and shuffled their feet in support.

We went clothing shopping because I quite literally had a mental break down. I’ve gained 10 lbs and with my new port…

Absolutely nothing that I use to wear can be worn anymore.

My daughter curled my hair today because I am nervous as hell to lift my arms with my new port. I’m still healing. And I’m thankful my kids are ready to step in and help where they can.

I use to hide my illness from them. But I realized I was robbing them of so much time with me. Robbing them of compassion. And so much more…

And although I don’t believe they deserve a sick mom and I’m still coming to terms with this reality….

They deserve the best version of me. Which is why I decided to go on the pump 24/7. It’s been 3 years since I have been able to play with them as a mom should…

And I’m fighting every day to get better to give the best version of myself to my family.

I want to say thank you for everyone who’s left comments and support. I truly appreciate it. I don’t have the energy to respond to everyone. But know I am blown away with how you view me and my ability to share my journey.

I just want to remind you that you’re not alone in how you feel. No matter how big/small or stupid it feels to have a reaction over something…

Your feelings are valid ✌🏽✨

10/08/2023

I’ve known for awhile I would eventually end up on a pump that would be used to keep me alive.

No matter how much you mentally prepare…

It doesn’t change the fact that you’ll be forever mourning your old life and old ways.

A simple shower will now be a routine that comes with anxiety. Is my dressing wet? Will this become infected? Will this be another hospital trip?

We tried a small sub-q pump to help me maintain normalcy in my life. However my body had very, very different plans.

Within 24 hours I began to experience a severe reaction that even my medical team had not witnessed before.

This resulted in another surgery and having a permanent port placed for medication purposes.

I strongly stress to you to stop hating your body. I wish I could go back in time and thoroughly enjoy just simply walking up a hill, going for a hike, swimming, and running half marathons like I use to.

Instead I was so focused on my appearance and not enjoying the moment. Although I am glad I have these memories to look back on…

I urge you to take my warning.

Celebrate your body! No matter where you are on your journey!

If you’re ready to start capturing your journey through images. Go grab the downloadable guides at Honeyraye.com

Regardless… use this as a reminder to love every moment you experience. You never know when it’ll change.

10/08/2023

I never want you to feel discouraged because you don’t feel like you have the “adequate equipment”.

Reminder that we all start somewhere. Your phone is enough to capture your confidence boost!

My DIY guides, teaser videos, or reels give instructions based on you using your phone as your camera.

This image was taken with my phone. To prove that you can take an amazing photo….even if it’s just using your phone.

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09/30/2023

This is what an invisible terminal illness looks like.

I remember when someone was mad at me they said “She claims to be sick. But it’s really not that bad.”

Comments like this are said more than I’d like to admit. I know it’s ignorance. Which is why I find it important to educate.

For what seemed like the 7th time….

I was actively dying rather quickly.

I want to remind everyone I am only 29…

I am a HUGE advocate for Apple Watches! Because of my Apple Watch I was notified of a trend difference within my heart.

So I am screaming! IF YOU HAVE A LOVED ONE WITH A HEART ISSUE ; GET THEM AN APPLE WATCH! (I do have the exact one I have linked in my Amazon store at Honeyraye.com in the menu)

I was then told I would be having another procedure on my heart. This is where we made the life saving decision to have a pump implanted. This pump will provide me with 24/7 access to life saving medication.

This resulted in me having a tube in my neck for 2 days while we began medication. (Which is this picture here.)

I want to thank all of my clients who were absolutely wonderful and understanding. Allowing me to focus on my family and healing. I will be in touch shortly to begin rescheduling appointments.

This is my reality….

This time I had to have discussions with doctors that they were to do anything and everything to save my life…

That conversation without a doubt has changed my perspective.

I don’t want to take time away from my family anymore. So please understand that my pricing is my pricing for a reason.

Please use to guides to perform your own bo***ir session if I am outside of your budget.

I will be extremely upfront and confrontational if my pricing is questioned. As my time with my family is the upmost important.

I love making art and making you feel amazing. But I love myself and my family more. ✨

As always I will be sharing my continuous fight with and

Thank you for your support.

Visit Honeyraye.com to grab your guide or to shoot an inquiry my way.

09/30/2023

All my memories of when I first began the “This is Me” project are flooding my FB memories.

It makes me wanna cry.

I was so “broken” when I began this project.

So lost.

I never expected the project to react and impact the ways that it has.

What I saw as “simple posing”.
Has led to empowering millions of women and changing their lives!

Some days I’m angry I’m terminal.
Some days I’m drowning in my depression.
Some days I wish I could do more.

But….

I am grateful for every moment I have been able to empower other women! ✨🖤

I am grateful every moment I get to enjoy whatever this existence is.

09/30/2023

I ran away…

I call a lot of traumatic events “reality splits”.

Because that’s what they are. The easiest way to explain a reality split to someone is through the example of being cheated on.

You have this image of this person in your head. They love you. They care for you. Spend all their extra time with you. They’d never hurt you. Until you find out they’ve been lying this whole time. And your world crashes. You begin to question absolutely everything…

Even yourself.

It’s only when you accept that you were only seeing YOU out of that person. That you can begin to accept what happened. It’s still hard because YOU wouldn’t cheat.

There’s so much more to this lesson. But I hope this gets the gears turning as to what I mean.

So when I ran away…

It was after the second time I was hospitalized. I kept finding out “new” diagnosis. “New” problems in my day to day. And I couldn’t take it anymore. I just couldn’t process that many reality splits.

I called my best-friend at the time and began packing. I drove 12 hours straight because I needed a break. I needed something I could control.

I remember struggling to breathe walking to this beach. And depending on my friend to help me in my weak moments.

It’s okay to run away.

We often get wrapped up in bills and day to day life. And I want you to know…

LET THEM BURN!

What will happen when you’re dead?
You’re just dead.

So yea, will it be hard to pick up the burned pieces and make new….

Yes. I won’t lie to you.
But sometimes we need an absolutely clean slate to begin rebuilding…

I owe everything to this girl. To the girl who wasn’t afraid to burn and break.

She’s fought tooth and nail for me to survive! And how dare I ever disrespect her struggles and fight.

After all…

She’s who you need to thank for the “This is Me” project. And why you can begin falling in love with yourself with just simple posing. ✨🖤

All because she decided one day to say “ENOUGH! I can’t handle this. And ran away!”.

Learn more about this “This is Me” Project at Honeyraye.com and grab your instant downloadable guide today.

09/28/2023

September is National Su***de Month & as it comes to a close. . .

I thought I'd share something I wrote several years ago…

Back in 2012, I faced one if the hardest times in my life. That year I tried to end my life twice. Not many people knew, why. . . because depression doesn't have a face.

I didn't show warning signs.
I never have.
I have had suicidal thoughts since I can remember.

I know that ending my life doesn't end my pain, it creates it for others. I know that ending my life isn't the answer.

But that doesn't make my suicidal thoughts stop. ❤

I recently have had….

' ; you have everything to give right now '

….tattooed on me to help with my thoughts.

Hopefully you find your reminder too ❤

09/26/2023

When covid first started hitting the news…

I don’t think any of us projected just how significant the long term effects would be. Not only on the economy but mental health, education, and so much more.

This was just captured in my bathtub with newspaper taped around me.

Sometimes things that seem so “insignificant” at the time. End up being such a huge piece of history (your memories).

Capture the moments as they come. You never know just how a “simple” idea will really be a staple memory.

09/16/2023

I posted to write a love letter to yourself…

And a lot of people didn’t know what to say to their self.

Please note I’ve been doing this for years and I prefer to envision the love letter I’d receive as if I was living in a romantic novel.

“To be the one to caress your cheek is a privilege I vow to give no one else.

Your smile is infectious. I get lost in my admiration of you…

How soft, smart, and enchanting you are…

You are my definition of heaven.”

09/15/2023

✨✌🏽

09/15/2023

Just in case you ever have heart palpitations…

Of course consult your medical team but you may find relief with these options

-You can drink peppermint tea (non caffeinated) and it’ll soothe you 🖤

-Cayenne pepper on your gums will promote more blood flow and help ease your symptoms.

-Drink water 💧