10/21/2022
Story time! 📖 October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I can’t speak for everyone who has gone had a similar experience, but losing our baby Julian at 16 weeks was the most difficult thing I have ever been through. If you know me or have been following along for awhile, you know our story. Julian was born sleeping on June 22, 2020. We were so so devastated and still carry a lot of those feelings with us, just in a different way. 💛
Now I want to take this story in the direction of HOPE. 🌈 About a year ago, we found out we were pregnant. While we were so excited and grateful— we were very cautious about getting our hopes up. We spent many months “not thinking about it”. (But let’s be real— it’s impossible not to think about) We didn’t buy anything for baby for a long time “just in case”. Cause, ya know, pregnancy after loss is a triiip. Well, we got past the anatomy scan, we found out our baby was a girl & we started to feel hope grow each day.
I eventually started scouring marketplace for baby stuff. I came across this beautiful bassinet and it immediately grabbed my attention. I messaged the woman and it was still available. I thought and thought and decided to wait. About a week or so later— I changed my mind. Something told me I needed that bassinet. So I messaged the gal again and it was still available so I set up a time to come and get it. A few days later, I was with my friend getting coffee and before dropping her off at the airport, she came with me to pick up this bassinet. We get inside and these people are THE nicest people. They had the bassinet ready for me along with a bag of baby clothes. 🥹🫶 We chatted for a bit and then the woman said to her husband, “Ok Julian, could you load up the bassinet for her?”….. JULIAN. Julian delivered me my very first baby purchase. Julian owned the bassinet before I did. Julian was with us. Julian is always with us. Mal and I exchange a glance and I immediately get goosebumps. We get in the car and start freaking out. JULIAN!!! I call nick and tell him the story. In that moment, I knew two things:
1. Our baby girl was going to arrive safely.
2. Julian was with us. And always will be.
💛✨🤟