01/02/2026
My 2025 started with me working the same job I was expecting to have for a long time, coming off my first holiday season celebrated with a partner, thinking about the future in a way I hadn’t before. By summer (and all in the same 24 hours) I started a new job, my car died completely, and my heart was unexpectedly broken. Every. Part. Of my day to day life was different. It was honestly one of the harder seasons I’ve experienced in recent history. I let my 36th birthday pass with no fanfare, just a quiet dinner ordered in and some tears. I threw myself into the gym and my new job and healing through therapy and no small mount of weepy conversations with loved ones. But I kept moving. I learned what real heart break feels like. Damn. It SUCKS. But I learned what I deserve too.
I deserve love that is not a convenience when things are good and a burden when things are hard. I deserve communication. I deserve someone that understands my values. I deserve to have someone that can accept the wild amount of love I have to give. And I think it’s bu****it to say you can’t be in love until you love yourself, but it’s certainly better to. And it’s definitely easier when you know yourself. And I’ve learned so much this year.
Even though I wouldn’t want to do it again. I truly am so so much happier now. I have never had a job where I felt more respected and seen and appreciated. I have never had a safer car (haha), I have never felt so confident in my own skin. And I have never had more fun dating. I have never been so sure about what I’m lookin for in my future.
2026 is year of continued growth, more confidence, exploration, and lots of joy. Joy as resistance but also just for fun.
