03/04/2026
“Dear Lord,
It’s the 1st of March-
Not yet Spring-
And all around me
Buds are blooming
And birds are singing.
But I’m weeping
Because the world is burning
And even the earth seems bewildered by this madness.
Bombs are dropping
Bodies are bleeding,
Babies are crying,
Yet branches & blooms keep reaching
Like a child’s arms begging,
“Please God, save us from the evil of Men.”
-M.M.
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I havent been online much lately. Part of that is just navigating postpartum w/ a baby & a toddler, but another was that I felt like I was tuning in to a horror show every day, telling Satan to take my most precious currency - my time- & flooding my mind w/ images & words & heartache that didn’t have much place to go.
During my prayer time a few weeks ago, God clearly told me to turn it off. I had a vision if I were to walk in on Finn watching/scrolling through some of the horrors & heaviness that’s been on socials & newsfeeds lately & how appalled I would be, regardless if his intentions were “good.” He’s too young to carry that all himself. I know as God’s children, He has to feel the same.
The lie I was telling myself was that “staying on socials” & “tuning in” was making me a better person. The reality was that I was giving evil a platform & worshipping it more than I was worshipping Christ.
So I stepped back. Not to check out, but so I can tune in w/ the world in a REAL way. So I can be present with my family & community around me w/o being crippled.
That said, I’ve found a comforting solace in writing as I’ve stepped away. I’m no longer so heavy I cannot stand, but the ache is still there… in the trees blooming too early, in the grocery store where I reach for extra canned goods “just in case”, in the blue sky I look at with gratitude while I’m painfully aware other skies are filled with smoke.
While this poem may sound a bit bleak, I’d like to leave you with the reminder of God’s hope found in Revelations that contrasts it beautifully-
“‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.
He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” -Rev 21