01/25/2025
Life has been chaotic lately, hence my first post since November.
2024 was probably the HARDEST, most challenging year Iāve ever had. The past year has been full of heartbreak, sadness, bitterness, unexpectedness, and completely DRAINING⦠to say the least. It felt like every time things were about to go up, something else would swoop in to knock me down. That āI donāt think I can handle one more thingā feeling taking over my mind.
This year, it took everything in me not to say. āSCREW THIS YEAR⦠there is NO way, I will be reflecting back on any parts of itā š
Buttttt⦠The Holy Spirit was not letting me get away with that oneā¦
Even in the midst of my pity party and reflection, I was hit with the realization of how truly grateful I am for a whole lot right now. Iām thankful for my friends and family who have been supportive, loving and continuously checking in on me. Without them, I honestly donāt know where Iād be. Iām grateful for my son River, who keeps me smiling even when I donāt feel like it. His sweet kisses and hugs are what keeps me afloat.. to keep pushing on. And I have Jesus, who Iām grateful for the most.
Within the past few weeks I have been praying for God to make me new, refresh my soul completely, make me into who HE wants me to be. Iāve felt so guilty lately dwelling on the negatives, day after day. Instead, I could be focused on the blessings that He put right in front of me this whole time.
And in the midst of every single trial that was thrown at me this past year, Jesus was faithful. He has given me a sense of peace and comfort when I wanted to give up. He has given me strength to push through each and every day.
So with that being said, my word to hold onto in 2025 is SURRENDER. Surrender all things to the Lord. When things get too heavy, I will lift it to the Lord. 2025 wonāt be MY year. 2025 will be HIS. ā„ļøšš¼