02/27/2023
I guess this is what they call nesting 🪺
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We are officially in the home stretch and to this very moment I am shocked to my core that, any day now, I am going to be a Mama. We have prepared so much in these passed few months and gotten many final touches ready for our girl or boy; either way this child is going to be a force to be reckoned with (I just know it.) I hope he/she has my sarcastic humor and career driven gumption while also gaining Treys intelligence, family oriented traditions, and heart.
The kicks, While brief, they make me feel so connected to baby. However, nothing prepares you for those Judie chops to the bladder- lawd have mercy.
Thus far I’ve been blessed with a smooth pregnancy, yet there is always those intrusive thoughts of- okay, this is too good to be true, that means something bad is going to happen, right? I believe within my core, the answer is No because 90% of the nerves honestly come from the unsolicited horror stories, my career, and “well, I hope you don’t go through what I did because… *insert rare x, y, & z complication*. That being said, up to this point I’ve Remained calm about the inevitable labor (aka- THE BIG DAY) and that’s what I intend to continue to do.
Thankfully, I couldn’t have asked for a better support system. I’ve had Trey by my side every step of the way to support me. He’s never missed a doctors appointment, which some may think is unnecessary, but he has said time and time again reminding me “I want to be included.”🥹
I never thought this would be me. Sure, I’ve said, “when I have kids…” but that eventually trickled into an “if” all on its own. It’s still terrifying, but it’s all in God’s will. We want this baby more than anything, and up to this point, all that we’ve worked towards has been for this very chapter.
Just the other day Trey and I were laughing about our twenties and how we couldn’t have imagined having kids younger. We paused and between laughs realized, “well, crap- that was just last year are we really ready?” I think the answer is clear- nobody is fully “ready” to devote their life to another human. It just… happens.
A peek through my lens at 38 weeks💗
