02/19/2023
For anybody who feels tired, scared, alone and hopeless right now. I wrote this for you.....
๐บ๐ฐ๐ป ๐พ๐ฐ๐ป๐ฏ ๐ฐ๐ป.
I know you're hurting.
I know some days it's hard to breathe. Hard to live.
I know you feel like it isn't fair. The world is going to s**t. You don't deserve it.
And truth is. You're right. It ๐๐ ๐'๐ก.
Especially if you were the one always trying. Especially if you were handed s**tty cards. Especially if you trusted someone you shouldn't.
Especially if you were hurt by the ones who should've made sure you were protected.
Especially if you were too young to have a say in anything.
Especially if you cried for help, and were kicked instead of heard.
Everything they are doing to you, have done to you....or maybe even aren't doing....has nothing to do with you. And everything to do with them.
๐๐ซ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฒ.
And I know that's sounds too broad to possibly relate to everybody. But it's not.
No matter what mistakes either/any party made. Each and every single decision relies solely on the maker. And that's what it comes down to, isn't it?
So the best advice I could ever give to you, as somebody who has felt and is feeling any and all spectrums of loss, hurt and devestation.....
๐บ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐.
It truly is that simple.
๐๐๐. ๐๐๐๐. ๐๐.
You don't need to get revenge. Revenge is for the insecure. Be strong and have enough self love to realize the real consequence is the loss of your presence.
๐๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ข๐ญ.
You don't have to do better than them. Success, even though admirable, if done for revenge is still revenge. You're still thinking about them and letting them control your thoughts and feelings. Don't put that pressure and stress on yourself to meet an imaginary finish line when you should give yourself the time and space to grieve. Pain isn't a competition.
๐๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ข๐ญ.
Don't react. Dont reach out. Don't seek external comfort or distraction.
You are valid. The hurt you experience now doesn't negate the love you once had. Doesn't negate the person you used to be. And definitely isn't your fault.
Be grateful for what it brought you and taught you. Without the rain, no growth can happen.
sษชแด. แดกษชแดส. ษชแด.
I promise you.
Anything else will only prolong the grieving and healing process.
Be it past trauma. Current trauma. Heartbreak. Addiction. Death. Betrayal. Feeling hurt from anybody or anything.
๐๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ข๐ญ.
Feel those feelings. Every one of them.
The anger. The resentment. The bitterness. The denial. The soul crushing heartache. The seemingly bottomless pit of despair.
The sadness. The loss. The depression. The devastation. The guilt. The shame. The conflicting emotions. The desperation. The willingness to do whatever it takes to not feel it.
๐ฆ๐๐ง.......๐ช๐๐ง๐......๐๐ง!!!!!
For as long as you can. For as often as you can.
Don't deny it. Don't hide it.
But also don't stay in it. Don't wallow in it.
Sit with it. Experience it.
And do absoolutely nothing reacting to it.
Not a single one of us will do all this perfectly. Trust me. I've lived it.
You will react. You will isolate. You will shutdown. You will have unhealthy coping mechanisms.
But remember to show yourself some grace and compassion.
You are hurting. Badly. And when we hurt, we react in instinct and fear for protection.
Just do it as soon as you are able so you can break the cycle and begin healing.
Sit with the fear. Learn to control it.
Sit with the anxiety. Learn to self soothe it.
Sit with the emotions. Realize they are fleeting and ever changing. ๐
Nothing you can do will make this easier.
Nothing anybody can say will help you forget it.
Not a single self help book will make it not feel like there is a hole in your chest.
There's no guru in the world that can ease the pain of it.
And no distraction in the world will allow you to skip it.
It all comes back eventually, and we have to face it. Either in damage to ourselves or to others.
Sit with it.
Self reflect. Learn the lessons.
Grow from this.
You have to ๐
๐๐๐ it to ๐ป๐ธ๐ด๐ฟ it.
Hiding and ignoring your wounds because you can't bear to look at them will only cause more scarring and damage.
Sit with it.
Alone at first. Then with family and friends.
Once you realize you can sit with all the things you thought were more powerful than you. All the things you thought would end you. All the things you thought you couldn't possibly face, fight or get past.
You will realize that the only thing you were sitting with was yourself.
It could never defeat you. Because it ๐๐ you.
๐บ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐.
You won't regret it.
And one day...youll be grateful for the experience. โฅ๏ธ
๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ณ๐ข๐ง๐ this brings ๐๐๐๐ค๐๐๐๐๐.
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๐๐๐ฅ๐ข๐ง๐ it brings ๐๐๐๐
๐๐. โก๏ธ
I send so many wishes of healing to everybody who read this โจ๏ธ I know you wouldn't have bothered unless you need it.
๐๐๐ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฆ๐๐๐จ๐๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ก๐จ ๐ฆ๐๐ฒ ๐ง๐๐๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ก๐๐๐ซ ๐ข๐ญ โ๏ธ๏ธ๏ธโ๏ธ
