03/26/2021
CHAPTER 18
Delirium set in. But her insecurities weren’t suddenly gone. The pain would still be there, always. There would be other lows that she’d go through. But the air Annette chose to breath in was crisp and clear. In the ebbs and flows of life, she wanted to be more like water flowing over it all. And in her case she needed to go to the very lowest depth to learn how to float.
Maybe this entire tale was a physical journey of a girl who is pushed to the brink. Or it was all in her head. Just at it was in yours reading it. You could be going through similar moments as she. Physically, mentally, spiritually. A bit here, a bit there. Or maybe a friend is. A work colleague. A lover. Your neighbor. That smiling face you pass by. The person who has it all. The person who has nothing. The wealthy. The poor. The sad. The happy. You don’t really even know what Annette went through in her past. You don’t know much about her at all actually. But did you judge her for being too much? For being dramatic or weak? Did you relate to anything in her journey?
The moments that led Annette on this path felt more sour than sweet. But that’s life isn’t it? Choosing which of the two to focus on. You trust, you breathe things in, you indulge, you feel gutted, you fall in love, you compare, you push away, you get addicted, you suffer, you dance, you cry, you laugh… and you slowly learn to kill the person life molded you to be, to become the person you actually want you to be.
Her name was Annette. Sure, she’s fictional. But to me, she’s all of us.