08/17/2023
I have been so depressed with losing 80% of my eye sight due to a health problem that still isn’t fixed and not sure where to go from here I have been to doctors and hospitals for the passed year and I am getting the same news every time they have pushed medication that my body can’t handle medication doesn’t help it makes me feel worse. But my mental health took a turn and I really became mean ,sad ,and angry I woke up to headaches all the time my eye sight I could see perfectly fine to waking up and barely seeing and on good days I can see a lot but it’s all blurry my eye sight comes and goes. The headaches are all the time they never go away and nothing seems to help them. I have tried everything under the sun. But the last week or so I have thrown myself in to crafting and designing and I just wasn’t myself I gave up on things I loved to do because I thought there was no point I wasn’t going to be able to do these things. But I have learned that just because you can’t see 100% doesn’t mean you can’t still do what you love you just gotta find a new way to do things. So I have and some of my projects looks like 5 year old made them but some don’t but for me this is progress for me and it’s something I am proud to do again I have so many things to keep my mind busy but definitely running out of things to do due to not doing it for so long I forgot I didn’t have much left but I’ll get more that is how many sublimation cups I have made in the last few days! I really am happy with my progress and I am finding my happy place again drawing, crafting, painting, and designing has always been my therapy I just needed motivation.
Thank you all for liking my posts and comments you all have given me motivation to makes this journey awesome so thank you for the support and love!
Don’t give up on things just because you don’t have something you need just remember you can do anything that you put your mind to it! I have learned lesson along my road and the first one I have learned this last week is to not feel sorry for yourself get back up and go on living because you are still breathing and you still have your family! The best part is that I have two people that have been completely rock stars can’t thank them enough for everything they have done! So I could just relax. If anyone is going throw something and needs to vent don’t hesitate to reach out to me and we can talk! Don’t battle depression alone! It’s not healthy.
