01/13/2026
2026 has already given me such a strong and positive start, and I’m feeling inspired and grateful for what’s ahead. May it be a year full of growth, happiness, and beautiful moments for all of us! I’m stepping away and deactivating my social media accounts to focus on self-love, healing, and continuing my walk back to Jesus ❤ This time is for me—fully and unapologetically.
Over the last couple of years, I lived in survival mode and walked through one of the darkest seasons of my life.
Trigger Warning: Mental Health / Suicidal Thoughts
I battled depression, anxiety, PTSD, and got a little lost there. I stopped taking care of my vessel, isolated, questioned my past, feared my future, and even questioned God.
There was a point where I didn’t want to be alive anymore.
IWriting that is hard, but it’s my truth. Contemplated su***de sat in it, thought it all through, felt completely alone in my own mind. So I looked for help—therapy and medication—Lexapro, it was a rabbit hole, didn't not know how much childhood trauma I was holding on to. It was painful and made things feel worse. Opened pandoras box and did not know how to close it. It was dark and so lonely, I aslo lost friendships along the way, no blame here—when you’re drowning, it’s hard for others to know how to stay afloat with you.
But I made it. I’M STILL HERE. I survived something I once thought I wouldn’t. I am in a good place and living life with my three littles and blessed.
WHAT saved me?
I found my way back to JESUS. When I wanted to give up I looked at my children and I crawled back to Him, prayed for clarity, and surrendered control. He carried me through the storm, but put me through fire. Pa que entuendas! reminded me of my strength, and helped me endure without giving up. I don’t believe this was punishment, it was not karma—I believe it had purpose.
I lost parts of myself but through Him, I’m rebuilding and healing. Stopped the negative self talk stopped the ruminating. Mell Robbins. Dr. Huberman and diary of a CEO.
WHAT carried me through?
My family dysfunctional and imperfect, but mine!! Especially my brother, who showed up without conditions: a text every morning, a visit every Sunday, and a safe, judgment-free space when I had nothing left.
WHY AM I SHARING THIS?
Because I lived it, because even though it feels incredibly vulnerable extra personal feel like I am getting naked here in front of everyone with nothing to hide—I know my story isn’t just mine to keep. I’m sharing it in the hope that it reaches someone who needs it, or reminds someone to reach out. This isn’t a copy and paste post this is me opening up and sharing and healing.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE: If you know someone who is battling depression, please check in on them. Shoot them a quick text, call, “I’m thinking of you” can make more of a difference than you realize. You could be the one small moment of light that helps someone keep going. And even if they don’t respond, even if they shut you out or pull away, please don’t give up on them. Sometimes love shows up quietly 🤍
🤍 If this post helps just one person, my heart is full 🤍
I’ll be leaving this up for 48 hours before stepping away. I can’t wait to return and continue creating with you all very soon. Thank you for your patience, kindness, and continued support. 💫📸 I’ll be back 😉!!
