10/31/2025
Fall always brings reflection; the season change feeling metaphorical to life. For the first time in 4 years, I did not advertise or push my huge annual marathon and that was a big gulp to swallow- to feel the grief and guilt of time moving on and letting my brother down by letting people forget him or stop saying his name.
I heard a quote recently that said “time seems to stand still in the moments of grief or pain. It freezes all around you while you watch the world keep moving.” I felt that exact feeling in every loss, but my brothers loss creeps up on me from time to time like this- time freezes and I am reminded he’s not here.
But YOU GUYS- you guys, my clients, my friends that feel like family - YOU GUYS make time fly. You guys make time feel like it’s fleeting away from me. Your announcements, your babies, your three-nagers, your milestones- the way you include me and make me feel like I’m family. I couldn’t possibly put into words what it feels like. As a wanderer, I don’t find “home” to be places, I find “home” in people. In all of you. It genuinely pains me to miss any one of you or your milestones. This year was by far the hardest to make work and I questioned if I can do it next year- until you all came with your families and I’m like HOW COULD I NOT?
If you made it this far, thank you. For supporting me, trusting me, laughing and crying with me, following me, chasing me down- for choosing me. Thank you for all of it. ❤️
