02/15/2020
Do you ever find something that defines part of you then eventually it just dwindles away without you even noticing? I originally discovered photography as my sanctuary. I took long walks around campus to clear my head. I ran into friends. I enjoyed the beauty of the world around me. I learned and grew form there - I branched out and discovered more outlets for photography. I did promotion for department productions, tried out headshots for my friends and took three semesters of classes. After I graduated I went on tour in all kinds of new places that I loved to photograph, but found that I wasn’t going out nearly as often as I used to. With my job’s schedule it would sometimes be tough to go out and explore then be on time to rehearsal where I was responsible for up to 60 kids. So, I let go and focused on my work and cherished the little bit of time I could go out and explore. Since moving to Chicago, I’ve felt strangely uneasy pursuing my artistic passions. I’ve only taken out my camera on trips back to Michigan and haven’t used it once in the city. Chicago is fun, friendly, and so full of opportunities to the point where it can be overwhelming. I work three jobs that all include a 30+ minute commute (and that’s with a car. Often over an hour without) and I rarely find the time to go on a photography excursion. That fact coupled with my social anxiety of constantly being surrounded by busy people in the city as opposed to the quiet peaceful photography walks I used to take in nature or a small town. I’ve discovered that there’s a chance the city life may not be for me - which is a tough discovery to make. But I’ve also discovered that my dreams are still possible here if I focus. I’m willing to keep giving Chicago a try and hoping you’ll hear more from me in the realm of photography and performing soon. Until then, I cherish the moments of peace such as when I can walk out of my job in the suburbs to witness a small town covered with a a fresh blanket of snow upon twinkling lights. The little things are just as important as the big things.