01/29/2024
I ran. I ran from demons. They chased me all of my life. I drank to escape them. I made them go away but they always came back. I know where they are. I've been there in a dream. I will join them again and we all will be free. Wait for me my beloveds. I did it all when I was young. I think I knew if I didn't do it then I would regret it. I knew someday I'd have to slow down. And stop. I have memories. But can I live on memories? They might sustain my pain temporarily but the rawness will rub through my insides eventually. Two and a half years after her passing I now know I will never feel a love like hers again. She was the love of my life and I feel empty without her. I'm not going to let the old woman in. I am keeping my soul young. I will always be a child inside. I'll see you in my dreams.....
