04/02/2022
I learned today that April is Cesarean Awareness Month.
Though cesarean is not what I wanted for me or my baby, that is where we ended up. And if I could go back and change things, have the control over my outcome, I 100% would. I still mourn the loss of the labor I wanted. My heart aches when I think about it and tears come to my eyes.
It’s ok to mourn the loss of the birth story you wanted, but don’t think, not even for one second that your body failed you.
I’m proud of the life that my body grew, that every day it brought me closer to my baby. I’m so very proud of what my body DID do. Even though I’m sad about what it couldn’t do, it doesn’t make me love my baby or myself any less.
So while I do cry from time to time, I’m still so very grateful and blessed for the gift I was given.
Always remember, you CAN be sad and grateful at the same time.