09/29/2026
I struggled with being proud of myself last week. I have felt so ordinary, so simple, and the feeling of unimportance kept creeping in. I think there’s been somewhat of a mourning period with my transition into a new season with my business. Last winter, I made the decision to step WAY back. Taking less clients than I ever have. We are talking going from 5-7 weddings a year, traveling for work, 4-6 families, a week, to almost nothing. No really, I actually took zero clients for the month of September.. 😅
And here’s the thing.. I’m a photographer, and I’m really good at it. But I continued to feel as though I was missing the mark. I felt God pulling me in a completely different direction. I was stewarding so hard in being needed and wanted by so many other people, that I often felt too depleted to give my all at home. So I made the decision to pause. To put my all into my marriage, my home, my children, our village. I’m not going to lie and say it’s been easy. Sometimes seeking the world’s validation seems to overtake the Lord’s. Because these are quiet moments. They are simple, sometimes unseen, or not being taken in with gratitude. So it can become exhausting and lonely. But I know that the enemy has me questioning that. At times he has me longing for a validation that does nothing for anything other than my ego. Ouch. 😅 So I stop. I remind myself that this?? THIS is where God wants me. And that THIS is the process of something so sacred and beautiful. I think the realization of these things is what pulls me into taking less, but giving more in my job. Take me to where all the other Mothers are, and I will also highlight their Ministries all while still honoring my own.
“I didn’t do anything today”
“I’m just a mom”
“The things I do don’t matter”
Wrong. They matter the most. Because Motherhood is Holy work.
