08/19/2024
I’ve been busy. Or rather, I’ve been having a very full life lately.
Sometimes I have to stop and ask, “is this really the life that I’ve built for myself?” Because when I was 16 and envisioned what my future held, it was kind of this. But also kind of not.
I’ve stepped into some shoes I never thought I’d get to fill. And I’ve taken those bad boys on a run that I never thought I could finish. And honestly, I’m still running. And I’m figuring a lot out along the way.
I’m learning to love not just those around me, but myself too. And the choices I’ve made whether they’ve worked out or not. Every step that I take feels a bit closer to the new goals that I’m setting for myself, and sometimes they feel like a step away from what I thought I wanted.
I am so used to being the “photographer” that sometimes it feels like being the manager is in complete opposition to the dreams that I set for myself. But then I have to realize that it’s just another step forward for my life and my career.
And the best part? I get to hire myself as the photographer. And I get to have as much fun as I want with it because I set my own standard.
Honestly, now that I think about it… maybe I am living the dream that I had when I was 16. It’s sure as s**t the dream that I have now.