01/08/2019
Bold
/bōld/
Adjective
Not hesitant or fearful in the face of actual or possible danger or rebuff; courageous and daring.
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I don’t really typically like to make “New Years resolutions”, or at least don’t like to call it by the name, simply upon the fact that if you care enough to change something, there should be no reason of hesitation. Also because of The Lord’s forgiveness and just a general standpoint of a lot of people, I’m sure, its comforting to view each day as a new opportunity to try again. But this I suppose, is mine.
My goal and biggest prayer for 2019 is to be bold in all of its entirety.
I chose the picture I did with this post as this past summer was the most bold I’ve felt in my whole life. This is a photo of me singing at camp #1, to fill some in. It was amazing and I’m so glad I spent summer the way I did, but it’s a lot easier to not fall into the dreaded “church camp game” when you spend your whole summer at one church camp or another, or in my case 4. So coming home is hitting a brick wall. I want to feel that bold, courageous, strong, and kind always, and though as much as I wish I could, I unfortunately can’t just live life camp to camp, week by week. It’d make getting an education a lot harder, at least.
I want to take on the life the same attitude I run into camp with. I pray that the same courage I have singing “Little Birds” or “Oh You Can’t Get To Heaven” in front of 30, 11 year olds while I’m counseling, I gain on a daily. I pray to have the boldness I sang with at camp so the thought of singing in front of my home church doesn’t make me so scared I could p*e right down my leg. To say yes more. I pray I start signing in church again, and extend and rebuild my Asl vocabulary. I pray for the patience and understanding that I have while counseling (believe me it takes a lot) to work in my day to day life. To fear less. I want to be my summer soul year round, taking on each adventure as they come. Laughing without fear of the future and smiling because of the beauty of the present.
2019 is my year to be bold.