09/22/2023
I honestly have been dreading posting this. Why? Because if I put this out into the world, then it will be real and what will people think of me?
I need to remember that no one elseās opinion of me matters except my own. I will always strive to be a good person and go for my dreams but not at the expense of my mental health.
I quit. There I said it. I quit being a Special Education teacher, and it was the HARDEST thing I have ever done. My favorite thing was being a safe space for students, growing healthy and happy relationships with them, and teaching them that they can do it too. There is so many positive things I can say about the school, Jennie Moore, that it would be too long for this post. I will be back but not in a teaching capacity.
I am usually more humble than this, but I know I was good at my job. True, I learned something new everyday, but I have gained so much experience throughout my life that it prepared me for everything that came my way. The thing is, teachers arenāt supposed to be able to handle that much. Humans arenāt supposed to be able to handle that much. Take a minute today to get your teachers their favorite snack, drink, or gift card to a place. They NEED it. We love our jobs and our students, itās all the extra that comes with it that makes unbearable.
Well, Marena, you spent all this time getting this college degree, now what are you going to do? Thank you for asking. I can happily say that I am a nanny to an 11 month year old girl. I take 2 walks everyday, drink my water, and eat all my meals I am supposed to in a day. Which did not happen being a teacher. I get to take all of my knowledge and heart, and pour it into this little one and her family. I am so at peace now, my mental health is so much better, and I can still financially support myself the same as being a teacher.
10 years ago, I barely knew how to talk to children. 4 years ago I went into the public school system. Almost 1 year ago I decided to not have kids myself. Two months ago I decided to help raise a child with her parents. I can teach her to read, write, learn math, cope with her emotions, explore her world, and be her own human in her own developmental time. I canāt wait for everything to come. š¤ Thanks for listening.