02/27/2026
In my YT video:
https://youtu.be/rFRapWSbtIE?si=icolsCYizJhO71go
Finding Yourself in the Alone: A Journey of Rebuilding
After 20 years of marriage, as a stay-at-home mom and former real estate broker, I found myself walking out the door with nothing but a backpack and some saved cryptocurrency. No house in my name, no car, no business — just the weight of leaving behind the home I had renovated with my own hands and the bedrooms where my boys slept.
My greatest fear, written on a divorce lawyer's intake form, wasn't losing possessions. It was losing home — the sense of belonging and identity built over two decades of sacrifice of being a mom to my two favorite people in the whole world.
The Trail as a Calling
Rather than leaning on others and creating chaos for those around me, I followed a long-planted seed and set out to hike the Appalachian Trail — despite having never hiked or camped a day in my life. My son hiked the first 100 miles with me before telling me: "Mom, I think this is a solo journey meant for you to do alone." Those words hit hard, but they were true.
Embracing the Alone
The central message of my story is simple but profound: if you are feeling alone, embrace it. Solitude isn't punishment — it's often preparation. Seven months of living outside, climbing mountains without cell service, and sitting with my hardest questions became a transformative experience I never expected.
Seeds Planted Early
God plants seeds long before you understand why. My years-long fascination with the Appalachian Trail made no sense at the time — until it became my only lifeline. The timing I couldn't control turned out to be perfect timing.
The Real Discovery
The trail wasn't about miles hiked or mountains conquered. It was about arriving at the deeply personal realization that I had never truly been abandoned — not by God, not by own self. That discovery brought such peace that I embraced solitude afterward, as an almost "jealous love" for quiet time with my God and my faith.
Now I feel called to re-enter the world and tell others: you are never truly alone. No matter how completely life strips you down — your name off the deed, your business gone, your identity dismantled — there is something waiting for you on the other side of that loss, if you're willing to walk through it.
"To start with everything and walk away with nothing — there's a reason for that."
https://youtu.be/rFRapWSbtIE?si=eynTmniVK62fcopR