01/06/2021
"Friends from before"
Out of focus and blurry, moments of color and light. This photo suits my 2020 perfectly. We had many happy bright spots, but also many dark shadows. Family took a front seat to dreams and aspirations, then a shut down made feeding the artistic side of me nearly impossible. We were going to make the best of it, I was determined.
Then more dark shadows, loved ones needing as many waking hours (sometimes more) as I had. Daily trips back and forth, endless paper work, schedules and daily reminders. Thank goodness for stationary and colored sharpies to stay my sanity.
Like a light switch it changed. Hearts were hurting and souls ached for somebody that could not and would not come home. There was a priority to soothe, love, and repair our home. I had to put dreams into a drawer and fix the project before me. The people and places that were familiar didn't feel quite the same and it was a struggle. I took pictures of outings and holidays on my phone and tried to keep those memories for when we felt better.
We neared December and seeing snow for the first time sparked an urge to go and grab the camera again. Let me tell you, it was ugly. Something that felt natural almost like an extension of my arm was clunky, weird and heavy. Almost as if it wasn't something I should be doing. I shot outside for maybe 10 minutes then came in, no pleased in the least. Rediscovering the joy photography and nature hold for me will not be an easy one. Each day is going to need the same soothing love as everything else. Going forward I will be trying to post more frequently, maybe not new shots but ones that bring me joy.
May 2021 bring you back to something or someone you lost and loved.
