30/12/2018
Many people though they know little about me, ask me that how did I manage to be here in FJMU and how am I surviving here?
Wait! I'm not talking about the academics, it is about something else. So this is for all those:
I live in a joint family of 10 adults and 8 children of different ages, (difficult to believe?) but yes I'm still living here. Being the 1st child of the family gives you a lot of love but there are many challenges that come along with it. But those are nothing in front of the ones that your parents face for you. I think, It was decided even before my birth that I'll become a doctor. I opened my eyes with this voice which never faded and I don't know when and how it became my passion too. It was my parent's choice, but mine too.
My father always says that dream big, set huge target and struggle for it, it is the only way to achieve something and survive which is true. As my father did prove it. He is the only one among his siblings who is educated. But being educated and getting married to an educated woman can't change your family norms even when you have to live in the same household of many residents. But the real struggle starts when it comes to the question of your children and their future. I have always seen my father struggling in every possible way for us meanwhile taking care of his parents, 2 younger brothers and 2 sisters. He worked day and night, worked 2-3 jobs concurrently, many times tried to establish some business but couldn't maintain it due to shortage of time and money. But he always said: "Beta jab 2 nasslain din raat mehnat karti hain tab hi ja kar teesri nassal kay halaat badaltey hain or me isi ki koshish kar raha hun. Main nahi chahta kay meri beti kisi par bojh bany. Main tumhain itna qabil bnana chahta hun k tumhain kisi se kabhi kuch mangana na paray". Having such views, where everyone thinks that girls are only for household maintainance is a great challenge. He indeed proved what he said. And still struggling for us when he leaves at 7 in the morning and returns at 11 at night, I know!
My Mother! My mother is a teacher since 2001, neither by chance nor by choice, but for us. She is the perfect example of a "Wonder Woman". How she managed to continue her job after HUGE resistance by her in laws. The way she has always managed such a big joint family and it's chores with her job alongwith her children and their education is not less than a miracle. I was a very pampered child being the 1st one in whole family and the only thing I want to do was to sit with my phuphos (my father's cousins) and do nothing. The way she made me study in such environment where all the time someone from somewhere was there as a residing guest and having just one room where she could make me study with noises of talking & laughing from outside, all day. I was a position holder throughout my school life and was taught only at home with such a busy mom but she always managed that for me. I was the one who was punished in every possible way but only for studies because I always wanted to stick with the guests and phuphos. I confess that I am here because of all those punishments. I couldn't be the same as I am now without my mother's strict training. She groomed my personality and changed me completely and rest of the circumstances got shaped around all that.
People know me mostly because of my art work and creativity but I was not an artist by birth. My drawing was poor in childhood and I had no interest in that, but the way my personality changed afterwards improved my skills too.
The line I'm writing now is from my signed overall: Being sensitive is good but sometimes, it hurts!
I think that is the crux of my nature and creativity. But the things I achieved up till now, are all because of my consistency. I don't settle until I achieve my goal whether it is my 100th or 1000th try and this is the secret of my life. Who I am today is all because of ALLAH ALMIGHTY and then because of my parents. I am nothing without them. Mama & papa, If you are reading this: You don't know how much I love and adore both of you. This is all for you and because of you. May you enjoy sound health and happiness. Ameen.
So, concluding here, I want to say that hard work and struggles always pay off, Allah never let your struggles go to waste. Try again and again and stick to your goal until it surrenders in front of you. If it is not meant for you, Allah would not have let you even try for it. So, Go and conquer the world. Nothing is impossible If you are determined enough to achieve it. But If Allah is consistent in blessing you, Be consistent in doing what He wants.
Stay blessed.
