19/07/2020
It’s with a heavy heart that I write you this note. I didn’t want to do this, but I was compelled by circumstances beyond my control to take the plunge. I tried my best to pull through, but my best was not good enough. I battled alone for about thirteen months now until my strength failed me. Mum, you provided for me more than I even wanted, took me to places that most of my mates have not even heard of, yet despite all these my heart was longing for love. I needed someone who would love me for who I was. I needed someone who could reach to the depth of my soul and feel the vacuum there. I had to do this because I was lonely. Did you ever imagine what I was doing in my room all the time I stayed there alone? Couldn’t you anyone for once have gone out of your way to just spend some time with me so that we could talk? There are many things I would have liked to tell you but I don’t want to add to your pain so let those other torments be buried with this undignified body of mine. Goodbye.
That was the su***de note a 15-year old boy dropped before taking her life.
Have you ever been in a place where your mind juggles between life and death and nothing seem to make any sense? Do you sometimes wonder 'what's the point of living a purposeless life? From where do I bring purpose in it?'
Human emotions and human brain - complex than anything else. Don't tell me it's just the chemical imbalance that makes me think of taking my own life. In other words, ending my misery.
We often ignore the signs which lead to a this state of our mind. It's time we let people know that they're not alone in this. It's time we acknowledge that mental health is as important as physical health. It's time we identify 'not so normal' behavioral patterns in people around us and help them get out of this before it's too late. Let's be a little more sensitive and empathetic.
Something I always wanted to say through what I see and feel about this thing. Its like a really heart wrenching story of our life. Please take this serious and care for people around you. Care like you really mean it. They won't show you but these people do exist. Its a request.