24/06/2021
In 2018, I had cornea transplant surgery in my right eye. That year was extremely tough for me because I was diagnosed with an eye disease, I couldn't perform well academically, and things just seemed to be falling in all aspects.
As recovery was slow and came with so many challenges, most of my 2019 went by with self-doubts at home. Everyone was busy suggesting what I should be doing next and what I shouldn't. Meanwhile, I just remained uncertain because I couldn't feel the connection and the passion with any of the presented options.
I was confused, distressed, and feared what would happen next. All I wanted was to find 'myself', my own identity.
Seeing me in depression, my friend told me about Pepsico Amal Youth Program. After doing some research online, it seemed like a great option. Initially, I was hesitant about social interaction, but then I had to push myself as I wanted to overcome the self-doubt.
This decision turned out to be the turning point in my life. Before joining, I knew there was something about this program that was special. Thanks to Amal, I found my potential. I connected the dots of my past to identify my goal through 'Life-Map' activity taught during the program.
I learnt how to trust my instinct and take the first leap. I learnt how to be both vulnerable and strong; around the people I trust. I never imagined that I would be able to leave my safe-zone. Yet here I am, overcame my lack of confidence.
Since the beginning, I aimed to use this opportunity to improve my personality. I succeeded, and the program gave me the gift of critical thinking and belief in self, which is rarely part of Pakistan's curriculum.